May Wed blog

I haven't been blogging in a while. I have been busy moving between apartments. I still have to move a lot of little things. At-least it gave me an opportunity to get rid of some of the clutter that I have accumulated over time. My room was a worse version of my car.

I am not able to rid myself of contest mentality and confrontation. I am used to comparing myself to everyone and everything. I am watching myself a little when I do that now.

I was thinking about NM's advice over confrontation and getting into fights over little things. He said he would have to be in a lot of fights if he fought over every little thing. Fighting over everything is not most efficient way of going about things. Anyway it is a low value behavior to let every little thing bother you and react over it. The other day I returned the U-HAUL that I had rented and the rental guy was a rude Middle Eastern guy. He told me to park the U-HAUL in between two other trucks even though there was not enough place in between. He was trying to pull some trick on me. I told him that I could not park it. He said "You are not a good driver" in a rude tone. For a moment I got slightly angry, but then I calmly replied "Yah, I'm not a good driver" He was surprised, he was expecting to react and he didn't know what to say and did not say anything after that.

I need to ask Ninjamaster how to conduct oneself at work, "Manhood guide for the current workplace". Most of the manhood views are kind of illegal or frowned upon at my work. I try not to preach about this stuff at work. My workplace is filled with a bunch of engineering dorks, who put women on the highest pedestal and believe in utmost chivalry without getting anything in return. And since they are only a few women at my work, everyone treats them like queens. They get to cut lines and stand in front of food lines, etc. because they are women, etc. The reason they hired some of the women is so that they could fill quotas.

I have started to learn to be quieter at work. But I am at work almost ten hours a day and I do talk a little to my coworkers.

Being a gentleman to a woman is absolutely expected, even if the woman is not really a lady. I remember my pervious boss telling my female coworker "Give all the heavy objects to Mindrunner". I am expected to go into the vaults, etc. but not my co-worker since she is a girl. She just used to sit near a computer while I toiled away in the vaults. This is considered normal. Women are not expected to go into vaults but they are getting the same pay since we are a government organization. You are expected to be a man, and take it like a man.