Friday blog and little self reflection

I finally slept early last night. I got up early this morning, and I felt more refreshed. I did not have the usual feeling of being tired and drowsy. I wanted to do some balance exercises, so I got ready quickly. But then I did not get a chance to do much as I was running out of time by then. I tried strengthening my calf's as suggested by Rob, on the balance ball that I have. I did it for a few minutes, actually just for a couple of minutes and I was still unstable at times. I need to work out with Rob sometime, practice some kicking, etc.

I wanted to call my friend and talk to him, or maybe go see him, but then I decided against it and did the blog instead. I need to read what I type so that it sounds better when someone else reads it. I could come up with several reasons saying 'oh I only have enough time to write, don't have enough time to read it again', etc. But then I am just going to be continuing my bullshit excuse spree just because I don't want to do something that is not as exciting as writing, but is necessary. Also I think come up with bullshit excuses so that I don't have to do things that are hard or I don't like doing.

Regarding contest mentality, I think I need to read that article over and over again. On side I think that I am not constantly in contest mentality, but then again I do it a lot of situations. I am not contest minded in some situations that are convenient for me, but then I very contest minded in other situations. My contest mentality is situational and it also varies with people, I am in contest mentality mode with some and less with others. I still constantly compare myself with my coworker and check on what she is doing, but she does the same and does check on what I am doing. I guess contest mentality is ok at the workplace as long as one doesn't go too far with it. Or maybe not, I am trying to cut down comparing everything with her, etc. and trying to work on my own stuff. I guess I need to know what she is doing to certain level since she is in my team, but then I have watch that I don't obsess over that. I am going to end the blog for today and read over it to fix the mistakes.