Last Friday of May

My female coworker yesterday was telling me that she doesn't find me to be a man; she says that she still looks at me like a boy. She said it's more the way I act than the way I look. She said that I am too eager to express what's on mind or something of that sort. She said that she found that I get easily excited and act like a kid, etc. She told me that the other women in the office thought the same and they thought of me as a kid, and wondered when I would be more mature. It was interesting; I do kind of act childish many times. In mind I still don't see myself as man, I still see myself as a boy. But I don't want to treated or taken as a little boy by women. I want to look at me as a man and not a kid. I realize that I am not as serious as some of the other guys, but I still rather not be seen as a kid. I tried to cut down on the corny jokes as recommended by NM, and also I am trying to work not saying things to get validation and attention. I still need to work on this area. People don't take me that seriously in general at work and other places. It definitely must be the way I act. I hope to change this slowly.

On another note, I noticed that I have a tough time catching on to a beat. NM once made me listen to the beat while teaching Salsa dancing at Franchise's place; I was able to catch on it to it for a little while. I tried listening and catching on to the beat the other day in my car and I had a tough time. My coworker said count one to four, and that most songs have four steps per beat or something. My other coworker said tap your leg to each beat something, I still don't get either way and unable to recognize the beat or the rhythm, I have to ask NM or KDDR about this sometime.