Last blog for May 09

This is my Blog entry for Sunday. I woke up late this morning. I had a good class with nfm, kddr and franchise last night. I stated my interest to two girls yesterday by practicing the mission. One of the girl's who worked in the Macy's store was cute. I tried to understand how I am easily fooled by rich pretty girls with expensive cars. I still get angry or upset easily. I am trying to be calmer and think situations through a little. Maybe I should try meditation, haven't asked NFM about that. Today I finished some of the remaining moving that I needed to do. I moved close to my female coworker's apartment. Today while driving out I saw her husband and her. The guy is socially awkward.

After moving I was thinking about what to do. I should go try new mission out but I did not feel like doing it. I guess I could try lower missions and work my way up. I did not feel like going out and doing them. I called Rob but he seemed to be busy. Anyways it was too late to meet with him to do the missions. I then decided to write the blog for today.

I have good intentions of doing things but I never end up doing them a many times. This morning I wanted to go running with my neighbor but I woke up late so I did not go with him. I then thought I will do yoga instead but I did not even do that. Later I thought that I will do some strength training, did not do that either.

I see the mariciyo Paulson exercise has been removed from the homework assignment list; I should ask KDDr about that.

My internal value or the way I feel about myself fluctuates a lot. I am happy with the guys but then again it crashes down many times or a simple situation can bring it down. Sometimes I don't feel to good about myself and start thinking in terms of contest mentality and feel other people, like my coworkers etc. are better than me.