I went to the Christmas party at my workplace. I greeted a few people. I saw a crowd around one of our new cute coworker's cubicle. I went over there and I saw two cute girls. One was my coworker and the other her sister. The sister was nice, anyway, I make some small talk with them. Then I went around wishing other office mates.
The sister was nice. She gave me a piece of chocolate. And she recommended that I try the cheesecake. I was a little nervous. I ate a little food. Then greeted my boss's boss and his boss. I was looking good. I was dressed well. I went back to the cubicle and all these guys were standing there. Anyway, I stood there and talked to the sisters. I did not know my coworker played tennis so I said "seriously, you play tennis?" she was all what, you don't think I play tennis? what does that mean etc? And the guys jumped in, saying hey man etc.
Later on, the two sisters decided to leave when they were not getting enough attention. They happened to pass by cubicle and were talking to one of my previous bosses. I went and stood by cubicle and then the previous boss who likes me pointed with his face, implying I should go out with one of the two sisters. I said oh yah the young is really nice. I did not want to hit on the older one as she works with me. Then the older sister was like NOO she's my younger sisters. I said oh yah the younger was good, and that she played tennis.
The older sister, then said no she is only 18. I said that's perfect, I am 19. And I said you so nice, its perfect. Then she started saying I know you want cute, nice and rich. I am not rich etc. I started qualifying. I said having a real high score on one compensates for the other two. She said "OH" or something. Then the younger sister started saying, I am not that nice. etc.
I have this problem where I emotionally invest in a girl, even if they are a little bit friendly with me. But I did want to say the truth I did feel a little attracted to her, that is why the other guys were lined up. I said what they were thinking.
I felt great when I was around my coworkers. Everyone validating me, the fact that I hit on her etc. and actually was encouraged to hit on her by my previous boss. All this made me feel so good. But then later when they and left and I left and head home. I felt bad, I reached my apartment, I was alone. I realize I probably will not see her again. The validation spike was good, I wish I had sure more value during the interaction, and not go into clown mode, trying to impress them by saying funny things. Now I need to move on with my manhood development.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
today was quite a day
I woke up late as I finally had a day off, after a long time. It is getting so god damn cold in the morning. I miss the warm mornings in india. I could never stay past 7 am in india as it would get so warm. It was so easy to get up in the morning over there. Anyways getting back to here, I finally woke up around 10 am.
I was feeling a little lazy, I woke up, went back to bed and then woke up again around 10:30 am. I brushed my teeth etc. and then played on my Wii. I actually finally got a chance to commission my Wii. My TV is broken, thanks to my mom constantly watching her india shows with a bad signal. So I attached the Wii to an old projector that I had. It was fun playing the wii with a big image on the wall. Except I had to stand to the side a little, otherwise I was causing shadows on the image.
I practiced some yoga exercises from the wii fit menu. I did about ten minutes of it. I also played the soccer ball head butt game for a couple of minutes. I did ten minutes as the wii fit character advises that I do at-least ten minutes of fitness at a time.
The yoga stretches helped me with my back problem. I like yoga, its not that exerting, yet it is very beneficial. I finally am learning and appreciating the true benefits of yoga. I use to have the immature attitude that flexibility is only of girls and guys like me don't need that. I was so wrong. Everyone needs it, including people who lift weights regularly.
I was also feeling a little lazy to go do the mission. I went and got a subway sandwich with a coupon my dad had saved. I later got a call from Rob who wanted to do the mission. I was glad then, as it was motivating to actually be able to go out and do the mission. We finally met at cerritos mall, I had a chance to do my mission, but Rob didn't get through too much of his mission. Later I couldn't find my car, after a lot of looking for it, etc. I found it in the evening, I found that by mistake I parked at one place and was looking for the car in another place close to it but not exactly where it was located. It was such a relief to finally find my car. End of this post.
I was feeling a little lazy, I woke up, went back to bed and then woke up again around 10:30 am. I brushed my teeth etc. and then played on my Wii. I actually finally got a chance to commission my Wii. My TV is broken, thanks to my mom constantly watching her india shows with a bad signal. So I attached the Wii to an old projector that I had. It was fun playing the wii with a big image on the wall. Except I had to stand to the side a little, otherwise I was causing shadows on the image.
I practiced some yoga exercises from the wii fit menu. I did about ten minutes of it. I also played the soccer ball head butt game for a couple of minutes. I did ten minutes as the wii fit character advises that I do at-least ten minutes of fitness at a time.
The yoga stretches helped me with my back problem. I like yoga, its not that exerting, yet it is very beneficial. I finally am learning and appreciating the true benefits of yoga. I use to have the immature attitude that flexibility is only of girls and guys like me don't need that. I was so wrong. Everyone needs it, including people who lift weights regularly.
I was also feeling a little lazy to go do the mission. I went and got a subway sandwich with a coupon my dad had saved. I later got a call from Rob who wanted to do the mission. I was glad then, as it was motivating to actually be able to go out and do the mission. We finally met at cerritos mall, I had a chance to do my mission, but Rob didn't get through too much of his mission. Later I couldn't find my car, after a lot of looking for it, etc. I found it in the evening, I found that by mistake I parked at one place and was looking for the car in another place close to it but not exactly where it was located. It was such a relief to finally find my car. End of this post.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
thursday before christmas week
Today was the last day of my work. My boss gave me and my co-worker lot of chocolates. My co-worker opened his chocolates. I started eating his chocolates. I ate about ten chocolates. These chocolates were good. These were the nice tasting one, with chocolate and peanuts. They come wrapped in a golden wrapper and are like chocolate balls. They have a big nut covered by chocolate cream on the inside. Crunchy chocolate and peanuts on the outside and nice big nut on the side with chocolate cream. ummm, these taste soo goood.
Now my stomach is paining as I ate so many. I still feel like eating one more. I haven't eaten one for an hour. I have started drinking water, to try to digest all the chocolate I have eaten. I am hoping the water will help cut down the stomach burn caused by eating all these chocolates.
The problem with these sweets are they give temporary pleasure, I mean its a good pleasure, but then you later you feel empty. You need more pleasure (sweet) and then again lows. Damn it, eat sweet, get sugar highs, then sugar lows. I wish food thats good for you, like spinach tasted so good like chocolates. Why is it always that things that are bad for you taste good and things that are good for you taste bad? One has to work harder to make things that are good for you taste good!
For example vegetarian food is good for you. Except your sources of protein are limited to nuts, beans, legumes,etc. But then again making vegetarian taste is a lot of work.I have tried all the garden burger, soy nuggets, soy dogs, etc. most of them taste like crap. A few taste ok. Some taste like freaking chemicals, in your mouth.
I just ate another one, oh god, my stomach is hurting again. I hope I am able to go to yoga later. I already feel so weird in my stomach. I think I must go to yoga, but I might have trouble performing the poses. I should go since I missed yoga yesterday too.
Now my stomach is paining as I ate so many. I still feel like eating one more. I haven't eaten one for an hour. I have started drinking water, to try to digest all the chocolate I have eaten. I am hoping the water will help cut down the stomach burn caused by eating all these chocolates.
The problem with these sweets are they give temporary pleasure, I mean its a good pleasure, but then you later you feel empty. You need more pleasure (sweet) and then again lows. Damn it, eat sweet, get sugar highs, then sugar lows. I wish food thats good for you, like spinach tasted so good like chocolates. Why is it always that things that are bad for you taste good and things that are good for you taste bad? One has to work harder to make things that are good for you taste good!
For example vegetarian food is good for you. Except your sources of protein are limited to nuts, beans, legumes,etc. But then again making vegetarian taste is a lot of work.I have tried all the garden burger, soy nuggets, soy dogs, etc. most of them taste like crap. A few taste ok. Some taste like freaking chemicals, in your mouth.
I just ate another one, oh god, my stomach is hurting again. I hope I am able to go to yoga later. I already feel so weird in my stomach. I think I must go to yoga, but I might have trouble performing the poses. I should go since I missed yoga yesterday too.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
get upset easily
I got upset at myself today for missing the yoga class. Finally I was seeing the benefits of yoga. And I did not go to class. This messes up the flexibility needed for tomorrow's class. I am on a computer, the whole freaking day, so doing yoga, etc. helps align everything.
I get so ticked of sometimes when things go wrong, a little. So many times, I have an all or nothing attitude, I rather do everything right or not do anything at all. I hate missing things, I need to have everything in order sometimes to keep doing stuff.
Today was another day. It was raining, so I did not go do my mission. I did not even do the validaiton list in my car. And now since I missed the yoga class, I am not going to the other ab fitness in the evening at my work.
I finished FEM I and FEM II, I need to read FEM III. Then continue reading the remaining atrticles. I have cut down social interaction with my co-workers, until I get my social interaction right. Becuase I end up falling into the same bad patterns when I talk too much with them. I am a talketive guy, I like to talk a lot, but most of the time its nonsense and silly stuff.
In the evening, I got an idea, that I should check out bickram yoga. I might go check it out in pasadena, excpet its so god damn cold. It makes sense, time to go back to my roots, yoga! Hopefull theres some chicks wearing minimal clothing at this place. Will find out!
Yoga and martial arts membership is more expensive than 24 hour fitness, but I guess it better. I think I should try it out. Bikram yoga is good, don't need much equipment, shoes, t-shirt, nothing. just shorts!
While I was typing this my dorky friend interupts me, messes up fucking flow of ideas.I am trying to meet the 350 word requirement. I can;t belive I am having trouble ending the post, when I am nearing the 350 word limit.
I get so ticked of sometimes when things go wrong, a little. So many times, I have an all or nothing attitude, I rather do everything right or not do anything at all. I hate missing things, I need to have everything in order sometimes to keep doing stuff.
Today was another day. It was raining, so I did not go do my mission. I did not even do the validaiton list in my car. And now since I missed the yoga class, I am not going to the other ab fitness in the evening at my work.
I finished FEM I and FEM II, I need to read FEM III. Then continue reading the remaining atrticles. I have cut down social interaction with my co-workers, until I get my social interaction right. Becuase I end up falling into the same bad patterns when I talk too much with them. I am a talketive guy, I like to talk a lot, but most of the time its nonsense and silly stuff.
In the evening, I got an idea, that I should check out bickram yoga. I might go check it out in pasadena, excpet its so god damn cold. It makes sense, time to go back to my roots, yoga! Hopefull theres some chicks wearing minimal clothing at this place. Will find out!
Yoga and martial arts membership is more expensive than 24 hour fitness, but I guess it better. I think I should try it out. Bikram yoga is good, don't need much equipment, shoes, t-shirt, nothing. just shorts!
While I was typing this my dorky friend interupts me, messes up fucking flow of ideas.I am trying to meet the 350 word requirement. I can;t belive I am having trouble ending the post, when I am nearing the 350 word limit.
Monday, December 15, 2008
work bitches
My other female coworker keeps complaining that its cold, so we decide to move, then she says it’s ok. I was like wtf in my mind, she say its cold and then when we agree to move, she says its ok, we don’t have to. why bring it up in the first place, if she didn’t want to move. But this female coworker is the best of the lot among the females.
My coworker is a stupid female. She is very good at acting coy. She does not give out any information or knowledge. Talks in very low voice and does not speak clearly, if asked something she says stuff in a incoherent manner, that doesn’t make sense. I tolerated this bitch because I work with her and need her on joint projects. Also I was a loser who didn’t have any females in my life so I started hanging out with her, even though she is not the most attractive and she is married and we work together. I have been tempted to bang her many times, but have not given into the urge.
She and the other two bitches and the only few females on my floor. It’s mainly old guy’s at my workplace. So when we even see a regular looking girl at our office we get all excited, as though we have saw some smoking hot babe. It’s like when you have a girl in a prison all the horny guys want to do her even though she may not be the most attractive woman. Female engineers, yah baby generally no glam dolls here.
The worst bitch is my boss. She is an all-American black bitch. She is and acts like a man. She is a she male. She performs her functions like a male. She walks around with boots like a man, takes big long steps like guys. Wears jeans and t-shirt. Nothing feminine about this bitch. It seems she buys her clothes at Costco no fitting room, nothing, just like guys. She walks around with a whole bunch of keys making a stupid noise along with her boots. So these are bitches I work with. I need to stop hanging around the other two dumb bitches. Since I had no women, I would hang out with my quiet coy female coworker. Saying stupid jokes and trying to impress and make these bitches laugh.
My coworker is a stupid female. She is very good at acting coy. She does not give out any information or knowledge. Talks in very low voice and does not speak clearly, if asked something she says stuff in a incoherent manner, that doesn’t make sense. I tolerated this bitch because I work with her and need her on joint projects. Also I was a loser who didn’t have any females in my life so I started hanging out with her, even though she is not the most attractive and she is married and we work together. I have been tempted to bang her many times, but have not given into the urge.
She and the other two bitches and the only few females on my floor. It’s mainly old guy’s at my workplace. So when we even see a regular looking girl at our office we get all excited, as though we have saw some smoking hot babe. It’s like when you have a girl in a prison all the horny guys want to do her even though she may not be the most attractive woman. Female engineers, yah baby generally no glam dolls here.
The worst bitch is my boss. She is an all-American black bitch. She is and acts like a man. She is a she male. She performs her functions like a male. She walks around with boots like a man, takes big long steps like guys. Wears jeans and t-shirt. Nothing feminine about this bitch. It seems she buys her clothes at Costco no fitting room, nothing, just like guys. She walks around with a whole bunch of keys making a stupid noise along with her boots. So these are bitches I work with. I need to stop hanging around the other two dumb bitches. Since I had no women, I would hang out with my quiet coy female coworker. Saying stupid jokes and trying to impress and make these bitches laugh.
stupid female coworker
Also when I am around people, who know me, friends, co-workers etc. my old habits are reinforced. I have cut down my social interaction a little so that I can understand and practice my mandhood. I need to be away by myself only practicing my manhood, meet with nm and doing my missions. I don’t think there has been a single day, where I have been able to do it all. My daily blog, my mission, my validation list twice, my mariciyo Paulson exercises 10 times, type my mission report and read the articles, all in the same day.
I am also having trouble properly applying new found knowledge to my current social interactions. I was sick of my female co-worker always lying to me or acting coy. She always tries to give up very little information to me. She tries to hide information, etc. I tolerated this, because I was used to tolerating women for their crap.
Also this bitch is a good nerd, she can sit and keep reading the whole day. I would try to be nice with her, because I thought she could help me if I needed to know something, but that never helped. I have to ask her ten questions to get the answer to one question. I basically have to squeeze information out of this bitch. I guess I could solve this problem of dependence on this bitch my reading harder and trying it again before asking her.
The other day, I was pissed of that she would lie about simple things. I asked her if she was going to the gym. She started off in her coy ways. No. I don’t know. I going to just show my face to my other co-worker and leave as I don’t have the clothes etc. I use to encourage her to come to the gym and she would be like no. Ok, anyway getting back to the situation, we leave from the elevator. I go get my clothes from my car. I come back to the gym and she is on the fucking treadmill. I was like what the fuck? I asked her why did she “your just showing your face and leaving.” Then she tried to act coy again and said yah I am just showing my face. I said whatever and left. I was upset that she would lie over such a simple thing. Now, she and I have a lot friction. It’s uncomfortable when we see each other. But in general she has a low self esteem and I also have to feel bad too if I hangout with her.
I am also having trouble properly applying new found knowledge to my current social interactions. I was sick of my female co-worker always lying to me or acting coy. She always tries to give up very little information to me. She tries to hide information, etc. I tolerated this, because I was used to tolerating women for their crap.
Also this bitch is a good nerd, she can sit and keep reading the whole day. I would try to be nice with her, because I thought she could help me if I needed to know something, but that never helped. I have to ask her ten questions to get the answer to one question. I basically have to squeeze information out of this bitch. I guess I could solve this problem of dependence on this bitch my reading harder and trying it again before asking her.
The other day, I was pissed of that she would lie about simple things. I asked her if she was going to the gym. She started off in her coy ways. No. I don’t know. I going to just show my face to my other co-worker and leave as I don’t have the clothes etc. I use to encourage her to come to the gym and she would be like no. Ok, anyway getting back to the situation, we leave from the elevator. I go get my clothes from my car. I come back to the gym and she is on the fucking treadmill. I was like what the fuck? I asked her why did she “your just showing your face and leaving.” Then she tried to act coy again and said yah I am just showing my face. I said whatever and left. I was upset that she would lie over such a simple thing. Now, she and I have a lot friction. It’s uncomfortable when we see each other. But in general she has a low self esteem and I also have to feel bad too if I hangout with her.
another day
This is my first blog this week. It seems like a good start. A blog on monday. This morning I felt a little down, because of the rainy weather. It’s funny how easy it is for me to get affected by factors like weather. At one time I feel great when I am around my friends or family, watching a comedy etc. but then again when I am by myself in bad weather my value takes a nose dive!
I am going to be jumping all over the place today. Whatever thought comes to my mind, I am going to put in words on paper (blog). I was wondering what the difference between a mangina and pussified male was? Or are they very similar?
I was also wondering if just reading and understanding would give me enough realization to increase my internal value. But I guess you need the external self-validation cycle to keep the cycle going.
Also I had a question which I posted as to how to improve reading comprehension? I think this is a valid question. Even though it seems lame. It's basic, trivial. But if everyone was understanding everything in the articles to the depth required. Then most folks in the forum would be master's in social interaction.
It's taking me so long to better understand the manhood concepts. I wish I could increase the speed of my learning and understanding of manhood.
I think ninjamaster should also write a sticky or post-it with guidelines as to how to manage manhood with work. Since quite a few of us work full-time, some in really Politically Correct environments which give women high value. Especially, if we don't want to loose our jobs. Specifics such as attitude, co-worker dating, boss, co-worker frame control etc. could be covered. How to manage manhood at work and outside work? Since at work, one has to watch their authority, expectations, etc.
I am going to be jumping all over the place today. Whatever thought comes to my mind, I am going to put in words on paper (blog). I was wondering what the difference between a mangina and pussified male was? Or are they very similar?
I was also wondering if just reading and understanding would give me enough realization to increase my internal value. But I guess you need the external self-validation cycle to keep the cycle going.
Also I had a question which I posted as to how to improve reading comprehension? I think this is a valid question. Even though it seems lame. It's basic, trivial. But if everyone was understanding everything in the articles to the depth required. Then most folks in the forum would be master's in social interaction.
It's taking me so long to better understand the manhood concepts. I wish I could increase the speed of my learning and understanding of manhood.
I think ninjamaster should also write a sticky or post-it with guidelines as to how to manage manhood with work. Since quite a few of us work full-time, some in really Politically Correct environments which give women high value. Especially, if we don't want to loose our jobs. Specifics such as attitude, co-worker dating, boss, co-worker frame control etc. could be covered. How to manage manhood at work and outside work? Since at work, one has to watch their authority, expectations, etc.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
haven't posted in a while
I have not done my blogs in the longest time. I got busy, lazy etc. I did even feel that motivated to do it sometimes. I was at-least trying to missions regularly. Because the mission's are the actually the toughest. You got to out there, I mean its cold, etc. and do them. I am changing my attitude regarding the hi's, compliment's etc. Instead of it being a deal to say them, I am trying to realize that its not such a big a deal. I am just saying whatever I have say, without caring too much for the other person response.
Today I am feeling lazy to do the mission. I kind of made by self ready to do it in the morning break, but my bitch boss wanted me to stick around. After that she kept walking by cubicle so I didn't want to take a chance. I did two compliment missions, one of which got rejected because I didn't follow the directions. It's probably because I changed the compliment twice while doing the mission.
I called Rob to see if he wants to meet up later to do the missions. But he has class at night. I don't know if I will be able to do the mission today, I don't feel motivated enough. I might try later but not sure if I will be able to do. I may even just relax today.
I have to start studying for my GMAT too, I haven't started studying yet. It is going to be hard working, studying for gmat and practicing manhood, etc. I will have to cut down on other activities like tv, videos etc.
Manhood takes up lot of time, energy. I mean it's good, but it's hard if you've gotten used to doing things in a lazy manner. You have do your blogs, validations, mariciyo paulson, missions, reading, phew. I don't want to get stressed by manhood though. I might take some breaks. It should just become a part of my lifestyle and to be a chore. I hope to internalize it eventually. This is just another day trying to balance work, activities and practicing manhood.
Today I am feeling lazy to do the mission. I kind of made by self ready to do it in the morning break, but my bitch boss wanted me to stick around. After that she kept walking by cubicle so I didn't want to take a chance. I did two compliment missions, one of which got rejected because I didn't follow the directions. It's probably because I changed the compliment twice while doing the mission.
I called Rob to see if he wants to meet up later to do the missions. But he has class at night. I don't know if I will be able to do the mission today, I don't feel motivated enough. I might try later but not sure if I will be able to do. I may even just relax today.
I have to start studying for my GMAT too, I haven't started studying yet. It is going to be hard working, studying for gmat and practicing manhood, etc. I will have to cut down on other activities like tv, videos etc.
Manhood takes up lot of time, energy. I mean it's good, but it's hard if you've gotten used to doing things in a lazy manner. You have do your blogs, validations, mariciyo paulson, missions, reading, phew. I don't want to get stressed by manhood though. I might take some breaks. It should just become a part of my lifestyle and to be a chore. I hope to internalize it eventually. This is just another day trying to balance work, activities and practicing manhood.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
reading and trying to understand
I read the frame control II article and I trying to see the difference between arguing and frame control. My whole life I have been all about confrontation. Reading this article again showing me how I can avoid confrontation and get people to qualify to me rather than me trying to qualify to them.
I used to use logic and explain concepts, ideas to chicks with in a detailed manner. But they still did not value me and I used to think what is wrong with them. Also I used to try to qualify to woman trying impress them with jokes, saying smart things. I now realize I don't have to qualify to them, instead I should get them to qualify to me.
I also now see how everything is tied into each other, internal value, frame control, validation and invalidation. I have such a validation validation seeking behavior. Always looking for validation from women, cool guys etc. If I did my self-validation exercise I would not have to rely on other people for validation so much. Also persistent practice of self-validation would increase my internal value over time and invalidation from chicks etc. would not bother me that much.
Ninja explains that listening to a good song etc. are validation based sources, these sources cause validation spike in me, I feel good momentarily. Also when I used to be around my friends having a good time, with them validating me etc. I used to feel very good, but later when I am sitting alone in my apartment I feel depressed sometimes as mentioned in the article. I have felt this many times. When I am around people who validate me, or from whom I manage to obtain validation I feel good but later when no ones around I feel lousy.
I understand everyone needs validation. It is a human need. But getting this need met from external sources of validation which may or may not be there is not the best way to meet the need. Creating one's own external self-validation cycle is best way to raise one's internal value over time. So that even if other people don't validate you, your internal value does not take a dive.
I have to practice these ideas. I tend to go back to my old self very quickly. I need to actively watch my validation seeking behavior, practice frame control and do my self-validation exercises.
I used to use logic and explain concepts, ideas to chicks with in a detailed manner. But they still did not value me and I used to think what is wrong with them. Also I used to try to qualify to woman trying impress them with jokes, saying smart things. I now realize I don't have to qualify to them, instead I should get them to qualify to me.
I also now see how everything is tied into each other, internal value, frame control, validation and invalidation. I have such a validation validation seeking behavior. Always looking for validation from women, cool guys etc. If I did my self-validation exercise I would not have to rely on other people for validation so much. Also persistent practice of self-validation would increase my internal value over time and invalidation from chicks etc. would not bother me that much.
Ninja explains that listening to a good song etc. are validation based sources, these sources cause validation spike in me, I feel good momentarily. Also when I used to be around my friends having a good time, with them validating me etc. I used to feel very good, but later when I am sitting alone in my apartment I feel depressed sometimes as mentioned in the article. I have felt this many times. When I am around people who validate me, or from whom I manage to obtain validation I feel good but later when no ones around I feel lousy.
I understand everyone needs validation. It is a human need. But getting this need met from external sources of validation which may or may not be there is not the best way to meet the need. Creating one's own external self-validation cycle is best way to raise one's internal value over time. So that even if other people don't validate you, your internal value does not take a dive.
I have to practice these ideas. I tend to go back to my old self very quickly. I need to actively watch my validation seeking behavior, practice frame control and do my self-validation exercises.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
lagging behind on my blogs
I don't know what ninja's policies are during thanksgiving. I wonder if we were allowed to slack off? I don't see him being too active on his website either so maybe he's busy with the holiday too or that’s what I assumed for my convenience. I wonder if he reads every post, I know KDDR is not reading mine.
I see everyone else including Rob have not been posting to the missions section etc. during these holidays. I saw Rob didn't update his google calendar with the latest blog posting so I thought everyone's slowed down their training until I visited franchise', Rob's and Foc's blog to see that they continued blogging at-least partially during this thanksgiving break.
Wow now I am behind, I thought I was going better than the other as I was the one with last mission posting but looking at the blogs, that’s not the case, my fellow classmates have been more diligent than me with these blogs.
I think manhood101 should me thought at high school level, then the advanced levels again in college. It's one of the most important classes I've ever taken. I wish manhood101 also had a system to constantly motivate lazy fools like me. One of my main motivations is that I don't want to be dysfunctional anymore, I have been dysfunctional for too long already. This motivation goes only so far, sometimes when its cold outside etc. I feel lazy to go do the mission. I wonder if Ninja can come up with some sort of motivation exercise like the validation list exercise. That would help folks like me who find it easy to slack off due to their busy lives.
manhood101 during thanksgiving, since I assumed everyone had slowed, were taking it easy including ninja, Kdrr, actually kddr i only see him at class nowadays. I relaxed but at-least I tried to do some reading. I finally completed the frame Control I article, I had read this long time ago, but I'm glad i finished reading it again. I probably need to read it again after sometime and again till I get become a master of this domain. Then I read the frame control II article, this was also good. The frame control III article is not complete so I read frame control 3 test which was supposed to be a test but ninja didn't want to bother coming up with fake responses. It was good to the example.
I don't know why keep missing god damn words when I type, i say it right in my mind before typing but I forget to type it for some unknown reason.
I see everyone else including Rob have not been posting to the missions section etc. during these holidays. I saw Rob didn't update his google calendar with the latest blog posting so I thought everyone's slowed down their training until I visited franchise', Rob's and Foc's blog to see that they continued blogging at-least partially during this thanksgiving break.
Wow now I am behind, I thought I was going better than the other as I was the one with last mission posting but looking at the blogs, that’s not the case, my fellow classmates have been more diligent than me with these blogs.
I think manhood101 should me thought at high school level, then the advanced levels again in college. It's one of the most important classes I've ever taken. I wish manhood101 also had a system to constantly motivate lazy fools like me. One of my main motivations is that I don't want to be dysfunctional anymore, I have been dysfunctional for too long already. This motivation goes only so far, sometimes when its cold outside etc. I feel lazy to go do the mission. I wonder if Ninja can come up with some sort of motivation exercise like the validation list exercise. That would help folks like me who find it easy to slack off due to their busy lives.
manhood101 during thanksgiving, since I assumed everyone had slowed, were taking it easy including ninja, Kdrr, actually kddr i only see him at class nowadays. I relaxed but at-least I tried to do some reading. I finally completed the frame Control I article, I had read this long time ago, but I'm glad i finished reading it again. I probably need to read it again after sometime and again till I get become a master of this domain. Then I read the frame control II article, this was also good. The frame control III article is not complete so I read frame control 3 test which was supposed to be a test but ninja didn't want to bother coming up with fake responses. It was good to the example.
I don't know why keep missing god damn words when I type, i say it right in my mind before typing but I forget to type it for some unknown reason.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Technology lust and my mac affair
I lust for new technology. Even in college, I was always fascinated by new technology, even though I did not have much money, I would avoid going out but instead save whatever money I have and buy some computer or electronic device or peripheral. I always was under the illusion that technology would make my life better and better. I also ended up looking for happiness from technology. I don't think technology gave me long term happiness. I would be happy first when I got a new gadget or gizmo, I couldn't wait to unwrap it. But over time, the honeymoon effect was over. I then long for better technology.
Like a maniac, almost everyday I check www.macrumors.com www.engadget.com www. gizmodo.com www. autoblog.com www.autobloggreen.com and also www.gas2.org. I sometimes even go through these blogs many times a day or in extreme cases even few times an hour. I am thinking I should instead focus my attention and energy to manhood101 forum and read all the posts there, get some functional, useful knowledge rather than salivate looking at tech goodies. This change has not happened yet, but I hope it happens soon.
I am a sucker for apple products, ever since my friend introduced me to them in about 2005. I first got a video ipod with the money I had saved. I was happy when apple finally switched to intel processors. and I was even happier when they finally let users run windows on macs. Now there was no turning back, I was going to convert to a mac man from pc man. The question of converting changed from if am going to convert to when I was going to convert. It finally happened in summer of 2006 during my graduate school program, when I got my first mac. It was a macbook pro. I loved it dearly. I did not have in girlfriends, so these tech products were what kept me occupied.
The macbook pro seemed to be the most perfect notebook computer at that time, coming from a world of pc's. This thing was just amazing, the only thing I could find close enough on the pc side was sony notebooks. But sony copies apple all the time. This computer seemed to be the most perfect computer at that time. Until 8 months later, apple announced a macbook pro with better processors and graphic cards at which point I felt inadequate again. I wish the good feeling from tech products was more long lasting!
Like a maniac, almost everyday I check www.macrumors.com www.engadget.com www. gizmodo.com www. autoblog.com www.autobloggreen.com and also www.gas2.org. I sometimes even go through these blogs many times a day or in extreme cases even few times an hour. I am thinking I should instead focus my attention and energy to manhood101 forum and read all the posts there, get some functional, useful knowledge rather than salivate looking at tech goodies. This change has not happened yet, but I hope it happens soon.
I am a sucker for apple products, ever since my friend introduced me to them in about 2005. I first got a video ipod with the money I had saved. I was happy when apple finally switched to intel processors. and I was even happier when they finally let users run windows on macs. Now there was no turning back, I was going to convert to a mac man from pc man. The question of converting changed from if am going to convert to when I was going to convert. It finally happened in summer of 2006 during my graduate school program, when I got my first mac. It was a macbook pro. I loved it dearly. I did not have in girlfriends, so these tech products were what kept me occupied.
The macbook pro seemed to be the most perfect notebook computer at that time, coming from a world of pc's. This thing was just amazing, the only thing I could find close enough on the pc side was sony notebooks. But sony copies apple all the time. This computer seemed to be the most perfect computer at that time. Until 8 months later, apple announced a macbook pro with better processors and graphic cards at which point I felt inadequate again. I wish the good feeling from tech products was more long lasting!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
saturday blog
I don't like proof reading that much. It's not as much fun as just typing. But the point where I am in my writing, I definitely need to be proof reading it, but I generally don't because of laziness and not finding the activity fun enough like the writing process. Actually I didn't like writing either, but I like it a little better now. I used to think writing is for english major's, I am an engineer, I don't need to freakin write. Now I see how getting your thoughts on paper or screen! is so important.
It's so weird that even though the correct grammar and words are in my head, when I put them on paper I sometimes forget to mention them. I forget to include article like a, an , the etc. I don't why this happens, but I guess I am so anxious to just get the thought on paper, that I don't worry about the details. But when another person reads it, they are like wtf! the sentences just look so weird when you forget to put these connecting words in. I used to better when I started college, I did not omit so many words, but over time I guess I kept getting lazier and my writing started getting sloppier. I don't even bother spelling the words right because Microsoft word takes care of it. But the problem comes when you start typing in a browser and it does not have a correction plugin.
I am going to drift to another topic now. I hate people who act gangster all the freakin time. I find it annoying. Thats why I don't like LA sometimes. I they are lot of pricks here, I guess they are prick's everywhere, Guys with gelled spiking hair, it annoys me more if they have ear rings, fucking girly bastards. I find a lot of the immature indian guys born here to be pricks, I mean they look like pricks with their spiky jelled hair. spiked like a fucking porcupine. and their constant attempt to act black is so mother fucking annoying.
I happened to go to a club with my friends in hollywood a while ago, it was a monday night, I had tuesday off. There was this club called pig n whistles or some shit like that. I guess it was a boogie or something, but they are serving alcohol, also some of the girls and guys there seemed to be on some substance or the other. The guys over here looked like fucking girls. Some of the guys look like they are from high school. About 80% of the guys had emo hair style, It made me so mad. I felt like beating up some the kids in the bathroom, just so fucking annoying, all these emo haired faggots. Also some guys wore shirts which were meant for girls. Low cut v-neck body fitting crap. I also find these punk rock kids annoying, I hope its just a stage of adolescence that these fags are going through and they return to becoming normal men later in life. The fucking funny part is the stupid little girls like the fags with emo hair. Stupid little cunts. I actually like american women from 70-80's mayb even 90's when they actually wore skirts and acted feminine. and also these women seemed to like real men. The next generation girls like crappy looking feminine emo fags. This is disturbing.
It's so weird that even though the correct grammar and words are in my head, when I put them on paper I sometimes forget to mention them. I forget to include article like a, an , the etc. I don't why this happens, but I guess I am so anxious to just get the thought on paper, that I don't worry about the details. But when another person reads it, they are like wtf! the sentences just look so weird when you forget to put these connecting words in. I used to better when I started college, I did not omit so many words, but over time I guess I kept getting lazier and my writing started getting sloppier. I don't even bother spelling the words right because Microsoft word takes care of it. But the problem comes when you start typing in a browser and it does not have a correction plugin.
I am going to drift to another topic now. I hate people who act gangster all the freakin time. I find it annoying. Thats why I don't like LA sometimes. I they are lot of pricks here, I guess they are prick's everywhere, Guys with gelled spiking hair, it annoys me more if they have ear rings, fucking girly bastards. I find a lot of the immature indian guys born here to be pricks, I mean they look like pricks with their spiky jelled hair. spiked like a fucking porcupine. and their constant attempt to act black is so mother fucking annoying.
I happened to go to a club with my friends in hollywood a while ago, it was a monday night, I had tuesday off. There was this club called pig n whistles or some shit like that. I guess it was a boogie or something, but they are serving alcohol, also some of the girls and guys there seemed to be on some substance or the other. The guys over here looked like fucking girls. Some of the guys look like they are from high school. About 80% of the guys had emo hair style, It made me so mad. I felt like beating up some the kids in the bathroom, just so fucking annoying, all these emo haired faggots. Also some guys wore shirts which were meant for girls. Low cut v-neck body fitting crap. I also find these punk rock kids annoying, I hope its just a stage of adolescence that these fags are going through and they return to becoming normal men later in life. The fucking funny part is the stupid little girls like the fags with emo hair. Stupid little cunts. I actually like american women from 70-80's mayb even 90's when they actually wore skirts and acted feminine. and also these women seemed to like real men. The next generation girls like crappy looking feminine emo fags. This is disturbing.
Friday, November 21, 2008
thursday's blog
Making up Thursday's blog, on friday. I am in such a bad fucking mood right now. Because of one of the many annoying things my boss does periodically. I hope my mood changes soon so that I can do the hi mission again.
I was planning on going to USC after work and try to do my mission there, but there may not be enough girls there on a friday evening. I am in no mood to do a hi mission right now, I have to change my mood from anger and frustration to a mood of going and saying hi to girls.
I remember a curse my female cousin has put on me many years ago. She said she hoped that I worked under a female boss someday who would be bitch and keep busting my balls. I can't believe her god damn curse has come true. My cousin came to know that I was working for a ball busting micromanaging bitch who was giving me a headache, she was delighted. I could see that stupid smile on her face at the party.
I am under probation for a while, so there's nothing much that I can do. Only thing I could try to do is transfer, but I have to wait for a job opportunity. Another thing I could do wait and go and work for defence contractors. Help them make weapons that will be used in future wars. But both require waiting.
I actually was in a great mood on thursday and today (friday) morning until my boss annoyed me. Yesterday, I was very happy with my hi mission, I did it with great success. I still have to do an fr on the mission. Hopefully I will do it tonight.
I guess I will have to suffer this crap under my bitch boss, until I get more experience, where I will be in a position to get a job anywhere. The ball is her court due to since I am in probation, so I guess I will have play along till I am done with probation. Fucking stupid woman that she is. I am so mad that I can't even think straight right now.
I was planning on going to USC after work and try to do my mission there, but there may not be enough girls there on a friday evening. I am in no mood to do a hi mission right now, I have to change my mood from anger and frustration to a mood of going and saying hi to girls.
I remember a curse my female cousin has put on me many years ago. She said she hoped that I worked under a female boss someday who would be bitch and keep busting my balls. I can't believe her god damn curse has come true. My cousin came to know that I was working for a ball busting micromanaging bitch who was giving me a headache, she was delighted. I could see that stupid smile on her face at the party.
I am under probation for a while, so there's nothing much that I can do. Only thing I could try to do is transfer, but I have to wait for a job opportunity. Another thing I could do wait and go and work for defence contractors. Help them make weapons that will be used in future wars. But both require waiting.
I actually was in a great mood on thursday and today (friday) morning until my boss annoyed me. Yesterday, I was very happy with my hi mission, I did it with great success. I still have to do an fr on the mission. Hopefully I will do it tonight.
I guess I will have to suffer this crap under my bitch boss, until I get more experience, where I will be in a position to get a job anywhere. The ball is her court due to since I am in probation, so I guess I will have play along till I am done with probation. Fucking stupid woman that she is. I am so mad that I can't even think straight right now.
friday blog
Bitch boss. I have the most annoying micromanaging bitch bosses in the world. She just knows how to push my buttons. I am treated differently from all the other people in department, because of my bad luck I ended up under the bitch boss.
Actually it’s probably my own fault for taking an offer with this department when I had an offer with another department. And then again moving under her thinking PLC work would be better. I was even warned that she is a weirdo, but I did not think it would be so bad.
This bitch does not care so much about getting the work done. She is more into stupid micromanagement crap. She is also a new supervisor who was just promoted to supervisor just before I joined her. It is clear that this bitch has never been in a position of authority. So I guess the only way she knows to manage, is by micromanaging. She is just too keen.
She is so obsessed with me, she even changed her day off, to make sure she was there when I was in the office. She even said she didn't want me to be alone. Today she really pissed me off. I came in put my stuff in my cubicle and then later I had to go use the restroom. She apparently walked by my cubicle to check up on me. She didn't see me. So she assumed I was not there, so she went back to her cubicle and then called my cubicle. She left a voice mail saying that my new was not working.
I come back see the missed call and call back. Right of the bat, she say's that I am very late. I told her that I was here on time and my co-workers saw me. Then she said she couldn't see my lunch box so she assumed I was not there. She told me to stop by her cubicle everyday from now on. This made me so angry. I don't want to this shit. I am so pissed but don't know how to deal with this shit. I guess it’s my bad luck that I ended up with a stupid bitch. I am waiting for other job listing's to show up in my company so that I can prepare for those interview's and transfer from this bullshit.
Actually it’s probably my own fault for taking an offer with this department when I had an offer with another department. And then again moving under her thinking PLC work would be better. I was even warned that she is a weirdo, but I did not think it would be so bad.
This bitch does not care so much about getting the work done. She is more into stupid micromanagement crap. She is also a new supervisor who was just promoted to supervisor just before I joined her. It is clear that this bitch has never been in a position of authority. So I guess the only way she knows to manage, is by micromanaging. She is just too keen.
She is so obsessed with me, she even changed her day off, to make sure she was there when I was in the office. She even said she didn't want me to be alone. Today she really pissed me off. I came in put my stuff in my cubicle and then later I had to go use the restroom. She apparently walked by my cubicle to check up on me. She didn't see me. So she assumed I was not there, so she went back to her cubicle and then called my cubicle. She left a voice mail saying that my new was not working.
I come back see the missed call and call back. Right of the bat, she say's that I am very late. I told her that I was here on time and my co-workers saw me. Then she said she couldn't see my lunch box so she assumed I was not there. She told me to stop by her cubicle everyday from now on. This made me so angry. I don't want to this shit. I am so pissed but don't know how to deal with this shit. I guess it’s my bad luck that I ended up with a stupid bitch. I am waiting for other job listing's to show up in my company so that I can prepare for those interview's and transfer from this bullshit.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
blog for wednesday
For some reason I had writer's block today. It took me a while to get started writing about anything. It’s another day working in a government establishment. This place is a more formal workplace than other places of work. They are still stuck in their old school ways. Traditional work environment makes you feel you are stuck in the 60's or 70's. Old brown carpet does nothing to lift your mood.
On the other had you have workplaces like Google, where employees are super motivated. They want to be working on the cutting edge projects. Their workplace is a place one wants to be. Even over their home. Employees would rather spend long hours at their workplace rather than going home, cause it’s just that good. Organic food, snacks, laundry machines, pool tables, rest beds, you name it.
Why don't more companies adopt the Google motto, keep employees happy, get more productive work. My workplace on the other hand is so unionized. I guess they are benefits to being in a union, but I think they can try to adopt some of the new age philosophies of Google. Make working conditions and workplace more motivating and uplifting.
In my opinion getting work done is more important than just sitting at desk and being there the whole time. At my work place unfortunately all one cares about is if the employee is on time. It doesn't if they aren't productive enough, etc. I remember atEdison you could do your work anywhere in the building as long you got it done, no one cared. But not my company you are required to be chained to your desks unless you have a field trip scheduled or something.
Also there is so much procedure, bureaucracy and red tape involved in doing anything in government. Just to take a class, one has to fill so much paper work, get approval of 3-4 different people, get their signatures. All this just delays and creates unnecessary loss of work time and resources. If employees want to take classes the process should be simplified. I can't believe we actually have to fill-out an attendance authority to take a class! Does it mean than I am like their slave and I need their authorization to be in a class and not that at my desk?
On the other had you have workplaces like Google, where employees are super motivated. They want to be working on the cutting edge projects. Their workplace is a place one wants to be. Even over their home. Employees would rather spend long hours at their workplace rather than going home, cause it’s just that good. Organic food, snacks, laundry machines, pool tables, rest beds, you name it.
Why don't more companies adopt the Google motto, keep employees happy, get more productive work. My workplace on the other hand is so unionized. I guess they are benefits to being in a union, but I think they can try to adopt some of the new age philosophies of Google. Make working conditions and workplace more motivating and uplifting.
In my opinion getting work done is more important than just sitting at desk and being there the whole time. At my work place unfortunately all one cares about is if the employee is on time. It doesn't if they aren't productive enough, etc. I remember at
Also there is so much procedure, bureaucracy and red tape involved in doing anything in government. Just to take a class, one has to fill so much paper work, get approval of 3-4 different people, get their signatures. All this just delays and creates unnecessary loss of work time and resources. If employees want to take classes the process should be simplified. I can't believe we actually have to fill-out an attendance authority to take a class! Does it mean than I am like their slave and I need their authorization to be in a class and not that at my desk?
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
another tuesday
I am finally going to stop talking about Vegas. Getting back to the present. It's just another plain vanilla tuesday. I got up, got ready and went to work. It finally started getting colder again. I was planning on going to the gym in my morning break but instead ended up catching up on my blogging.
I continued working on my program to create add-ins that could be used in other programs whenever required. One of my friends is leaving our group and going over to the power another group. So we had a farewell lunch for him.
I tried not eating breakfast so that I would have a good appetite for lunch. But I caved in after 9:45 am and just eat part of the lunch my mom parked for me. Then I started eating Kit-Kats that my co-worker gave me.
It was finally 11:15 at which point our whole group left to lunch. We walked over the restaurant, which was in a hotel in downtown LA. The host at the restaurant was really cute. She was wearing a black and white dress like a cheetah with big black batches. She was showing quite a bit of cleavage. I couldn't stop looking, she probably noticed me looking, but I couldn't look away, then the rest of my group reached and we went to out table. I don't understand why girls show you their stuff, but don't like it when you look at it?? She did give me a slight boner, but there were other people around so tried to stop looking at her openly.
I ordered a vegetarian burger, as I am trying to vegetarian as far as possible. I have tried before but I go back to the meat eventually. But oh well there's no harm in trying again and again!
My friend who was leaving was a quite guy, it took me a while to get him out of his shell. I can't be serious for too long and generally get along lot better if people if they are talkative, funny etc. I find it little harder to get along with quieter folks. Also I can't help being silly around people I know, but I don't know what else to do.
I continued working on my program to create add-ins that could be used in other programs whenever required. One of my friends is leaving our group and going over to the power another group. So we had a farewell lunch for him.
I tried not eating breakfast so that I would have a good appetite for lunch. But I caved in after 9:45 am and just eat part of the lunch my mom parked for me. Then I started eating Kit-Kats that my co-worker gave me.
It was finally 11:15 at which point our whole group left to lunch. We walked over the restaurant, which was in a hotel in downtown LA. The host at the restaurant was really cute. She was wearing a black and white dress like a cheetah with big black batches. She was showing quite a bit of cleavage. I couldn't stop looking, she probably noticed me looking, but I couldn't look away, then the rest of my group reached and we went to out table. I don't understand why girls show you their stuff, but don't like it when you look at it?? She did give me a slight boner, but there were other people around so tried to stop looking at her openly.
I ordered a vegetarian burger, as I am trying to vegetarian as far as possible. I have tried before but I go back to the meat eventually. But oh well there's no harm in trying again and again!
My friend who was leaving was a quite guy, it took me a while to get him out of his shell. I can't be serious for too long and generally get along lot better if people if they are talkative, funny etc. I find it little harder to get along with quieter folks. Also I can't help being silly around people I know, but I don't know what else to do.
redid my blog for monday
Monday, this is both a boring and inspiring day for me. Boring because its the beginning of a work week. Inspiring cause this enables me to get my week scheduled more streamlined, get up early goto work, etc. get things in the breaks etc. It brings some discipline in my otherwise disorganized schedule.
This monday was no different. I changed my schedule to a few minutes later so that I get more time in the morning. Now that it gets dark in the evening it doesn't matter when I leave, so leaving a bit later is not that bad. I am going to hit traffic either way. Not that its a lot of traffic but still.
My coworker assigned me some work and took off on vacation. I should have it done, by the time he comes back. He is a new addition to our team and I am glad to have him aboard. It feels good to have another guy on the team. That way I am not alone when I have to face my micromanaging bitch boss. Also I now have someone to look up-to as a mentor, for some reason my bitch boss didn't seem to fit the role of mentor well. She just seems to be busy in coming up with new ways of micromanaging folks. It clearly shows that this is the first time she has been in any position of authority.
I sometimes think if I made the right choice working for a government organization. I guess its a bit secure in bad economic times like this. But still the place if filled with bunch of old cranks, who sometimes seem disconnected from the way other private organizations function. I was one of the fist batch of students they started hiring after very long time. So there is a big gap between the supervisors and associate engineers. I am glad they are hiring more young engineers now.
Also civil services, for some reason hires the ugliest women. I guess you can't expect much in terms of beauty from female engineers but still. Edison, my previous company definitely had better talent than this place. I guess it's still better than having all guys. In this environment with all guys, spending 9-10 hrs at work, even the ugly girls start looking better.
Maybe I shouldn't be complaining, as this is probably a good thing, as messing around at work is not a good idea.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Sunday’s Blog
I will be continuing my rant on my Las Vegas trip. So the last we left off, I was in the Wynn hotel. This place was all about social value. There were a lot of premium band stores in the hotel. All the usual female catered high fashion stores like Gucci, louis vuitton, etc. Many of the people there were in suits and or expensive clothing. I was wondering if functional value would triumph in a place like this. I wondered how ninjamaster would perform in this place.
After admiring every aspect of Wynn, I finally went back to my car and head back to our hotel. Now our hotel didn’t look that great! My brother and sister-in-law went off gambling. I drove around looking for strip clubs, night clubs and other adult entertainment avenues. I finally ended up in one of these places, which I will discuss at a later time. I got back to the hotel room around 4:30 in the morning.
Anyways next day morning, we checked out and head to the lunch buffet in the hotel. I got a players club card just for the discounted buffet. There was quite a bit of food at the buffet and we spent a couple of hours trying all the different foods. At the end of the buffet, I was so full that even a light punch in my stomach would bring out the food.
We hade my niece with us, so we thought it would be fun for her if we stayed at circus circus. This would have never happened if I did more research. Anyways we go check in at circus circus and the place made me sick. It was old, really old. I am much more comfortable with newer establishments than older places. The same thing with Orange County and Los Angeles. I like Orange County much better than Los Angeles. I mean there are parts of LA, that I like near the cost from Santa Monica, to Malibu, Beverly Hills, Bel Air, Sherman Oaks area but in general the oc is much better. Orange county is newer, bettered planned, cleaner and list goes on. Anyways getting back to my circus circus room, I felt like kicking myself for going with my mom’s choice of hotel booking. I will continue in my next blog.
After admiring every aspect of Wynn, I finally went back to my car and head back to our hotel. Now our hotel didn’t look that great! My brother and sister-in-law went off gambling. I drove around looking for strip clubs, night clubs and other adult entertainment avenues. I finally ended up in one of these places, which I will discuss at a later time. I got back to the hotel room around 4:30 in the morning.
Anyways next day morning, we checked out and head to the lunch buffet in the hotel. I got a players club card just for the discounted buffet. There was quite a bit of food at the buffet and we spent a couple of hours trying all the different foods. At the end of the buffet, I was so full that even a light punch in my stomach would bring out the food.
We hade my niece with us, so we thought it would be fun for her if we stayed at circus circus. This would have never happened if I did more research. Anyways we go check in at circus circus and the place made me sick. It was old, really old. I am much more comfortable with newer establishments than older places. The same thing with Orange County and Los Angeles. I like Orange County much better than Los Angeles. I mean there are parts of LA, that I like near the cost from Santa Monica, to Malibu, Beverly Hills, Bel Air, Sherman Oaks area but in general the oc is much better. Orange county is newer, bettered planned, cleaner and list goes on. Anyways getting back to my circus circus room, I felt like kicking myself for going with my mom’s choice of hotel booking. I will continue in my next blog.
saturday's blog
Continuing my Las Vegas story, I went out looking a place to eat with my brother and sister-in law. It was my first time in Las Vegas, and I was trying to get familiar with the roads. It was too late to get to a Buffet, so we drove around looking for subway and ended up at a burger king drive through. I ordered a Vegetarian burger and sister-in law got fish burger, which my brother and she were going to share, as they were not that hungry.
We ate the burgers right in the drive through as I didn’t want to go around looking for another parking spot. It was funny that no car came behind us in the parking lot. We started eating the burger and realized that they were the nastiest burgers we had ever eaten. Now I realized why there was no one behind us in the drive through. My veggie patty burger was so tough; it felt like chewing on cardboard. My sister-in law said her fish burger also tasted very old and weird. I thought to my self no more ordering veggie, fish burgers at places like this in Las Vegas, as they are probably not quick moving items. Also with the abundance of buffets in Las Vegas, people probably don’t eat that much at burger king.
After eating those preservative filled cardboard patty burgers. We drove around Las Vegas admiring the beautiful buildings and lighting. I forgot to mention on the way to finding the burger king, I went by a street, probably industrial rd or something which was filled strip clubs, it was hard for to focus on driving. At which point my brother had to tell me to keep my eyes on the road.
I drove from one end of the strip to the other; it was just amazing, hotel after hotel. I could keep driving to and fro and probably wouldn’t get bored for a while; all the lighting and the big screens would keep my attention. I wanted to see the Wynn hotel, because I had been bombarded with its advertisements a while ago. I couldn’t believe that I was actually in front of that building. I parked my car in its gigantic parking lot and then entered its casino. It was huge, with people walking everywhere like a big fair. I was thinking to my self someday I should get a room in this hotel. At that point another idea propped in my wise head! That I should eventually get a room in each and every hotel in Las Vegas, like the Bellagio, etc. or at least all the good ones, now this goal I don’t know if I’ll ever complete but it was a good thought.
We ate the burgers right in the drive through as I didn’t want to go around looking for another parking spot. It was funny that no car came behind us in the parking lot. We started eating the burger and realized that they were the nastiest burgers we had ever eaten. Now I realized why there was no one behind us in the drive through. My veggie patty burger was so tough; it felt like chewing on cardboard. My sister-in law said her fish burger also tasted very old and weird. I thought to my self no more ordering veggie, fish burgers at places like this in Las Vegas, as they are probably not quick moving items. Also with the abundance of buffets in Las Vegas, people probably don’t eat that much at burger king.
After eating those preservative filled cardboard patty burgers. We drove around Las Vegas admiring the beautiful buildings and lighting. I forgot to mention on the way to finding the burger king, I went by a street, probably industrial rd or something which was filled strip clubs, it was hard for to focus on driving. At which point my brother had to tell me to keep my eyes on the road.
I drove from one end of the strip to the other; it was just amazing, hotel after hotel. I could keep driving to and fro and probably wouldn’t get bored for a while; all the lighting and the big screens would keep my attention. I wanted to see the Wynn hotel, because I had been bombarded with its advertisements a while ago. I couldn’t believe that I was actually in front of that building. I parked my car in its gigantic parking lot and then entered its casino. It was huge, with people walking everywhere like a big fair. I was thinking to my self someday I should get a room in this hotel. At that point another idea propped in my wise head! That I should eventually get a room in each and every hotel in Las Vegas, like the Bellagio, etc. or at least all the good ones, now this goal I don’t know if I’ll ever complete but it was a good thought.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
blog for friday
Continuing my rant on my las vegas trip. After checking in at the front desk, I got the keys to room, which was on the 13th floor or something. I had to take this beautiful elevator; it was a pleasure riding it. It was spacious; four people could sleep in there! And was decked with great arty paintings, with a blue, all in the elevator. I didn't even need to go to my room! Anyways, my floor had arrived in the midst of my love affair with the elevator. I get to my room, and pull out the room card and get in.
The room here was 100 time better than the room in Laughlin, NV. It had a nicer vibe to it and was more futuristic, well atleast reminded me of present times! Over stone age Laughlin. Well I guess the LCD TV instead of the CRT tube makes a difference. The room made me glad I was in Vegas. The hotel charged me a $10 services fee, which included Internet, gym, pool, shuttle and other services. I really didn't mind having the Internet! I forgot my Iphone charger in the car and the battery in my phone was running low and so I took the beautiful elevator back down to the lobby and then walked to the parking lot, getting lost only twice!
When I came back up the elevator and reached my floor, three hot hispanic girls appeared in front of me. The one in the middle was showing quite a bit of cleavage, just looking at her and her cleavage gave me a boner. I wanted to say something but since I had a boner, I guess my mind was not completely functioning. After they walked by I got the courage to ask them where they were going, where some good clubs to visit, cause they definitely didn't look like they were going to gamble! Anyways the elevator door closed and along with it closed any opportunity to ask my question.
Got back to my room and began searching for adult stuff to do in Las Vegas. I was already super horny, and looking at those three Hispanic girls made me even hornier. I was looking for strip clubs, nightclubs, and other places where I could find easy women.
At the same time I was feeling hungry from all the driving, I was battling the hunger over the horniness. But the finally I had to suppress the horniness for a little while, and gave into the hunger. Now I had to go find places to eat to feed my hunger and then places with easy women to feed my horniness. Will continue in the next blog.
continutation of trip to las vegas
Blog for Wednesday
After my Grand Canyon visit I headed to Vegas. Next time, I go to Grand Canyon it will be through Vegas and not through Laughlin. On the way to Vegas we stopped at Pizza Hut to get a pizza, it was an expensive pizza, probably because they have to transport all their food. The freeway they got better after I reached the I-15. It was getting dark because I started late from Grand Canyon. As we got closer to Vegas we had to ascend and descend small hills.
I did not know that Hoover dam was so close to Las Vegas, because we were planning to make a trip to Hoover dam. I was glad it was on the way to Vegas, from Grand Canyon. As we reached Hoover dam I parked my car on the side of the road and all of us got out of the car to see the dam. It was pretty spectacular for the fact that they built it in 1935. There was a security checkpoint on the way to the dam, I guess this is to ensure that terrorists don't get too close to it. After soaking in all the sights of the dam I continued my journey to Las Vegas. Las Vegas is not too far from there.
As I entered Las Vegas, I was blown away by the amount of lighting that could be seen from a distance. It will start in times the lighting we saw when we entered Laughlin. It was just amazing. I was wondering how much the businesses in Las Vegas spent on their electricity bills. Anyways now I was trying to find the hotel that we had reservations in. The exit that I was looking for was not just a few miles away, I was so happy to be finally entering Las Vegas.
So I exited from the freeway and the hotel was a short distance from the exit. I found a parking spot and then we unloaded our luggage from the car and headed to the reservation desk. The hotel was a little off the strip but it was very cheap pact I was amazed that it was actually pretty decent, in fact more than decent, pretty good actually. I'll continue blogging about my Las Vegas trip in the next blog.
After my Grand Canyon visit I headed to Vegas. Next time, I go to Grand Canyon it will be through Vegas and not through Laughlin. On the way to Vegas we stopped at Pizza Hut to get a pizza, it was an expensive pizza, probably because they have to transport all their food. The freeway they got better after I reached the I-15. It was getting dark because I started late from Grand Canyon. As we got closer to Vegas we had to ascend and descend small hills.
I did not know that Hoover dam was so close to Las Vegas, because we were planning to make a trip to Hoover dam. I was glad it was on the way to Vegas, from Grand Canyon. As we reached Hoover dam I parked my car on the side of the road and all of us got out of the car to see the dam. It was pretty spectacular for the fact that they built it in 1935. There was a security checkpoint on the way to the dam, I guess this is to ensure that terrorists don't get too close to it. After soaking in all the sights of the dam I continued my journey to Las Vegas. Las Vegas is not too far from there.
As I entered Las Vegas, I was blown away by the amount of lighting that could be seen from a distance. It will start in times the lighting we saw when we entered Laughlin. It was just amazing. I was wondering how much the businesses in Las Vegas spent on their electricity bills. Anyways now I was trying to find the hotel that we had reservations in. The exit that I was looking for was not just a few miles away, I was so happy to be finally entering Las Vegas.
So I exited from the freeway and the hotel was a short distance from the exit. I found a parking spot and then we unloaded our luggage from the car and headed to the reservation desk. The hotel was a little off the strip but it was very cheap pact I was amazed that it was actually pretty decent, in fact more than decent, pretty good actually. I'll continue blogging about my Las Vegas trip in the next blog.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
blog for tuesday
Continuing my trip to Grand Canyon, we decided to go to Grand Canyon Saturday morning. So we get up Saturday morning, have a late breakfast. Then finally head out to Grand Canyon around 12 o'clock. It took us about 2 1/2 to 3 hours to get to Grand Canyon. We finally arrived at Grand Canyon, we filled up some gas on the way in to the park. To enter the park in our car we had to pay $25. So I drove into the park and continued driving until I found a place to park. This was one of the observation points from where one could see the canyon. I parked the car and walked over to the point from where I saw the canyon.
It was breathtaking, just beautiful. The sight of the canyon cannot be described in words. It was one of the most amazing things I have ever seen in my life. The canyon was humongous, enormous. When you are looking at the huge canyon, all you can think off in your mind is silence. The huge canyons were apparently created by the river, which had been cutting through the rocks over centuries.
After this I drove over to the next observation point. Over here I got to see the canyon from another angle. A structure close to the center of the canyon looked like a pyramid. We took some pictures over here and headed to an Indian (Native American) gift shop. They had some unique collectibles in that shock which included dream catchers and other Indian crafts. I regretted not leaving Laughlin earlier as I would have been able to spend more time in this beautiful place. There were a lot of things to do at Grand Canyon if one got there early enough. There is a skywalk which is a glass bridge which goes out from one part of the canyon and comes back in another part, it's like a small U-shaped bridge. Since the entire range is made of glass one feels like one is walking in the sky. One could also rent a mule to go around parts of the canyon. I plan to go back to Grand Canyon sometime in the future and spend more time over there.
It was breathtaking, just beautiful. The sight of the canyon cannot be described in words. It was one of the most amazing things I have ever seen in my life. The canyon was humongous, enormous. When you are looking at the huge canyon, all you can think off in your mind is silence. The huge canyons were apparently created by the river, which had been cutting through the rocks over centuries.
After this I drove over to the next observation point. Over here I got to see the canyon from another angle. A structure close to the center of the canyon looked like a pyramid. We took some pictures over here and headed to an Indian (Native American) gift shop. They had some unique collectibles in that shock which included dream catchers and other Indian crafts. I regretted not leaving Laughlin earlier as I would have been able to spend more time in this beautiful place. There were a lot of things to do at Grand Canyon if one got there early enough. There is a skywalk which is a glass bridge which goes out from one part of the canyon and comes back in another part, it's like a small U-shaped bridge. Since the entire range is made of glass one feels like one is walking in the sky. One could also rent a mule to go around parts of the canyon. I plan to go back to Grand Canyon sometime in the future and spend more time over there.
monday blog
This is a blog for Monday, since I didn't do one that day. I think I will continue writing about my trip to Las Vegas as nothing that interesting happened on Monday.
Ok, so I am still in Laughlin on Friday. We are supposed eat breakfast and head to Grand Canyon. But as usual my family delays and we take our time to get ready. We finally end up going for lunch instead of breakfast at around 12:30. We go to eat a buffet. The buffet was pretty good; there were lot of different kinds of foods. So I start trying everything from this end of the buffet to the other end. I end up eating about three to four plates. My family does the same too.
So we are all there for almost more than an hour. Then we decide to go get deserts. So we all do that. I keep trying desert after desert. I eat cheesecakes, bread puddings, chocolate cake, ice cream and what not. My stomach was so full; it felt like it might explode. So I take a break and then start eating again. Then finally I finish of with some orange juice.
I finally decide to stop eating. I am super full. My family is all stuffed too. So we decide we should leave. But in the meanwhile my brother goes off gambling. The reception in Laughlin was not great. So all of us start looking for my brother, we finally find him.
We head out of the hotel, to the parking lot, its almost 2:15 now. We get started and head towards Grand Canyon. It was too late already. I pulled into another parking lot and called my friend and asked him if it was worth going this late. He said I should go another day. It would be almost 5 o clock by the time I reached Grand Canyon.
So I drove to another casino. My brother and sister-in-law went off gambling. It was Halloween night, so I was looking to see if there were any Halloween parties around. I was getting horny and started looking up the adult section of the newspapers to see if anything fun was going on close by. But Laughlin seemed to be a dead place; I wished I was in Las Vegas instead, where I would have been able to have some adult fun. There wasn’t even a strip club in Laughlin.
Friday, November 14, 2008
evacuation day
Doing my blog for Thursday I was late to work I had a flat tire I had to call my dad to get it his car and then we switched cars and I drove his car to work. I had to face a lot of headaches at work because I did not have my ID I had to get a temporary ID from the security services which I had to have stuck on my shirt for the entire day. At work I continued working on the program that I was working on the previous day. At around 10 o'clock we were required to take part in an emergency drill. This drill was supposed to be practiced by the whole state. At 10 o'clock there was an announcement asking everyone to go under their desk and stay there until further announcement. After about two minutes everyone were asked to evacuate the building. All of us formed to lines and walked down the stairways. After reaching the basement of the building everyone came outside the building and walked to the designated spots. We had to report to our supervisors to get tickets after they ensured a headcount. I got myself an orange was before the evacuation so that I did not feel hungry. After everyone was out of the building and in their spaces, we were let back in the building after a short while. After going back into the building and went to check out the gym. It was some cardio class so I attended it. I have been having some issues with my back so I did some of the back exercises prescribed by the instructor. Off to the cardio class I head back to my desk on the 13th floor. I had lunch at my desk and then continued working. My coworker brought me some macros that he wanted me to work on. He wanted me to create objects of code that could be reused whenever required. After finishing work I headed down to the yoga class so that I could continue working on my back. I found the older stretches helpful to my back. The instructor was really nice and watching her was motivating. After the yoga class I headed to the parking lot and then and then drove to the security checkpoint to get out of the building. Since I did not have my ID and my parking permit the security guy he was giving me a hard time. I wrote on my information my ID number and my name. This guy was known for being a prick. I went and got a sticker from a coworker of mine. But then the security guy said that I could not use that sticker since I was an employee. He then asked me for my temporary ID and took it. I shouldn't have given it to him but then it was too late I already gave it to him. So I left the building in an upset mood. I wanted to go back and get my temporary ID from him but then I realized he would try to cause more problems. So that was my day on Thursday, the evacuation Day.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
vegas and back
350 words wow, lets get started. My brother visited me from london, so I was busy taking him around, we ended up going to vegas. I did not do any research and it was my first time going to vegas. He also wanted to see grand canyon. My mom and dad had been to vegas as well as some place in neveda called laughlin. My dad said I could go to laughlin, stay over there and then continue the next day to grand canyon. This is what I ended up doing. Thursday evening in the last week of october we started and headed to laughlin. I started late around 7 pm so we ended up probably around 12 or 1 am or later in laughling. When I first entered the town it seemed nice with all the light up buildings along its small strip. We had a reservation in golden nugget, so we checked in stayed that night in that hotel. After checking in me,my brother and his wife went gambling. I don't know how to gamble and not really that interested, so just watched my brother, who is very interested in gambling, gamble. My brother won two dollars, so I borrowed a dollar from him and played on the 1 cent slot machines, with 3 cloumns. The dollar went upto 1.34 then went down to .86 then finllay went up 1.23 when I cashed out the playing money and went to another machine. at the other 1 cent machine it had four coloums, and I was lucky the 1.23 ended up becoming 2.32. So I went and got cash from the cashier for 2.32 dollars. I returned the dollar I borrowed from my brother and coninued playing with my one dollar. I played with my one dollar till it went down to .77 and then finally cashed out from another machine for 1.21 and gave it to my brother and headed to the hotel room to sleep. I tried a lot ofthe 1 cent machines with that dollar and found the slot machine with 3 columns better than the four and five columns on a consistent basis. even though I got lucky on the 4 column slot machine. I think I hit 350 words, so I am going to stop now, I will continue my grand canyon and vegas trip, I guess I should change my title to laughlin since I mainly wrote about lauhglin, but i am going to write about vegas later so the title can stay. Also I am using my dad's computer now, and i should have my computer by tuesday, which I am more comfortable with, so hopefully I can do my blogs more consistently then. And I havent proof read this blog writing so it might have some errors. Not proof reading is probably why I got a very low score on the writing part of the gmat exam, when i took it.
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