Not Blogging, pussificaiton

I have put off blogging for a quite a few days. I was busy with work and did not get to the blogs. I am still busy with work, but I decided I am going to start writing the blog and see where it takes me. I am feeling lazy to write a blog, but then I was thinking how I am the worst student in the class. I cannot get my expectations met. I cannot create attraction. I cannot speak well and I cannot write well. I have bad expression to top it off. Also I am the foreigner in the class, so I have the worst chance anyway. I am also the laziest and most disorderly. I only react even though I have no clue about what I am doing. I have read the least number of books. All these factors exposing how bad I am motivate me to at least try writing a blog.

As I drove into work today, I was thinking the only reason I go to work everyday even though I hate the work environment is because of the paycheck. I deal with manginas and pussified guys on a daily basis. Everything guys do at my work or talk about is how to better meet the expectations of women and trick or use different moves to get girls. If I even speak about what about getting my expectations met, they look at me weirdly like where the fuck did this guy come from. I sometimes feel the three to four hours of manhood boost that I get every weekend is not sufficient to keep me going through the week in this toxic pussification environment.

My mom doesn’t respect my dad, she always insults him, several times in front of me. All of a sudden she will tell me “Mindrunner, you should respect women” I have got sick of hearing that. If I even point out how the woman caused the problem in a situation she described, she will go on with a “ she is a woman, you should respect women”. So there you go pussification at work followed by pussification at home is generally a typical day in my life.