Bad Mood 5

Bad mood, I am in a bad mood today. There are some issues with me and my female coworker. I needed a ride last week, since my car broke down and so I called her to tell her that I needed a ride. She agreed to take me to work in the morning and drop me back later after work. Her husband called all paranoid and shit and told her to call me back and tell me that she couldn't drop me back home. She then made up some excuse that she had to go meet up with her husband after work or something along those lines. Anyways I asked her if she could drop me off and then go, I did not know at that point, that is was all BS just so that she did not have to drop me off. She said that she could not and she had to meet after husband right after work.

Later this week, I came to the entire story when she told me that her husband is very upset, etc. I don't know what the fuck she told him, that he is so mad at me. I guess he is also upset that I moved close to her apartment. I remember her looking through her car window to see if the husband was looking. It's a nice place and it just happened that way. Anyways she told me that her husband is worried since he comes home later than us. Nothing has happened between us, I think this is unnecessary drama. I heard she was even crying at work today. I am trying to avoid her now. It's just become weird over nothing. Apparently the husband is all mad and wants to kick my ass. Now I have to start hitting the gym more and workout inspite of injury. I don't even know this idiot properly. It is mind boggling to me that this fool is ok with her getting a chip n dale dancer but is paranoid when she gives me a ride!

All this drama is giving me a headache. I am trying to avoid it now. I really wanted to go to class last Saturday. I feel like shit now. I haven't seen nfm commenting on my post. I did my validation list in the afternoon today. I felt a little better. Maybe I will KDDR in the evening; I spoke to Rob last night and felt a little better. I use to do the missions and get validation in the past. Now I don't do the missions or anything and I am craving for validation. I have been going to different classes at my gym but the women over there are generally married and little older. I haven't really spoken to them. I looked up meetup.com to see if I could join some interest groups near my house but I couldn't find anything that I would like to do. I will sit down with KDDR next time and look it up again to see if he can pick something for me like he helped Rob with choosing a career. Right now I am just feeling better by getting tasks done.I don't really have any external validaiton.

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I am still having difficulty writing about bad mood, the topic still matters to me. Writing about computers or Iphone etc. is still way easier for me. Perhaps I am not getting get it yet then. The topic still seems to be somewhat relevant to me. I guess I could think of all the creative situations with a bad mood. When people are in a bad mood they should go surfing in the beach or ride a bike by it. Later they should eat ham burgers and get a nice thick strawberry milkshake. The strawberry milkshake should be made of real strawberries in an old fashioned way. Actually I haven't had one of those in a very long time. I want to try one next time I am around a Ruby's or something. I need to have a good appetite before I go there though. Maybe I should run on the beach for a while do some stretching, etc. and then head to Ruby's. Ruby's hamburger and strawberry milkshake should definitely make any bad mood go away.

One needs to have a super bad mood in order to be able to continue to be in a bad mood even after the hamburger, the fries and the milkshake. People with these kinds of moods can make good candidates for serial killers, suicide bombers, etc. They can be expendable mission mercenaries. Al qaeda, etc., should use this method as a recruiting technique. They should give the new candidates some ruby's burgers, with French fries and the best strawberry milkshakes. If the prospective candidate still feel like shit and he is still super angry and mad at everything, then the recruiting agency has struck gold and they have found a perfect candidate for their next suicide bombing mission.

When I am in a bad mood, my breathing gets shallow, I get more anxious, and the logical part of my brain does not function effectively. I get more emotional and impulsive than my usual self, which is already pretty emotional and impulsive to start with. I get angry at people for the smallest things. Sometimes when I am in really bad mood or very angry, even my head gets heated and I feel my heartbeat in head!

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I am not able to understand how to write a blog without the topic being at least somewhat relevant. I guess the topic is just the vehicle for me to express my personality. I think this carries over to other activities, where I still think the activity has to be a lot of fun, in order to have a good time. For example I used to think that you need a cool date idea in order to have fun. I have to realize that the activity is just a means to convey one's personality. I am still having a lot of trouble with this. In the same manner, I have to figure how to use my topic to convey myself. How do I use bad mood to convey myself? I still don't get it. I am getting frustrated and this is giving me a bad mood!

When I am in bad mood I eat more food. Haha I truly do! Or I eat too little! The eating habits are altered a little. But generally I eat more than eat less.

I got an idea for condoms, I want to create a condom brand called bad mood, and this condom will be used by people when they are in a bad mood. Are you in a bad mood? Try bad mood condoms! They will get your good mood back in no time!

I should also make bad mood ice cream. Girls eat lot of ice cream, sweets, etc. when they are in a rut. I want to create a bad mood ice cream especially for girls. It will contain all kinds of mood enhancers and drugs that make women horny, so that they go out and get fucked and get their moods will be up again. I will have to do some clinical studies before launching this product. And I will have to include some very hot chicks in a rut to get good results. The ice cream produces good results for hot chicks in a rut, the not so hot chicks could try it as long as they are not too fat.

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I think I needed to clarify whether I just write about my bad mood or write about bad moods in general. But then again the topic should be irrelevant. I think I just kept ranting about why I felt like that and what I was thinking, that caused me to feel like that. Bad Mood, hmm… why do people get in bad moods? People get into bad moods because of anger, depression, hate, jealousy, paranoia, stress and many other reasons. My boss probably has a bad mood because of his wife divorced him, etc. My female coworker has a bad mood because she had a fight with her husband. My male coworker, the rat, sometimes is in a bad mood, because of his wife and the fact that he is a highly emasculated male. I am in a bad mood for a zillion reasons ranging from frustration with not having a girl friend to not getting my expectations, people treating me as unimportant, etc.

My female coworker does not even talk when she is in a bad mood. She gets all quite and acts weird. I hate it when women are in a bad mood, they will either keep bitching or women from other countries get super quite, and make you feel like shit. I noticed this with women in the past too; they make you feel like crap too. I don't understand why they wouldn't want to talk it out when they are in a bad mood and resolve the issue. But no they want to continue feeling like that and make you feel like crap too. Then after long periods of not talking they will slowly starting talking little by little.

I also noticed women get into a bad mood way quicker than men. All it takes is a little bit of stress and they are in bad mood. I notice this in my female coworker. She acts a little weird when she is busy in the morning at times, then again in the afternoon, she comes to my cubicle and starts smiling and talking, totally forgetting how she was before. I think girls have emotional ADD. I told her that I am going to take a video of her bad moods and good moods and show her the difference. She probably doesn't even realize the difference. I mean when I am stressed, I am a little grumpy at times, but not so grumpy that I act all weird and not even talk, etc. and act upset. I can continue doing my stuff and if someone asks me something, I can take a quick second to answer their query.

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Ok bad mood, my boss just walked by cubicle twice. He doesn't say anything he just looks at me and walks away. He hardly walks by female coworker's cubicle, almost never. My new boss does not know programming and he was made supervisor of the programming group! So he just walks around checking up on me. He should check on both us but he walks by my cubicle. Also my cubicle is in the worst location, it is by the printer, the microwave, the refrigerator and the secretary. My boss only prints on my printer even though there is a printer close to him, but it is beside my female coworker. He doesn't want to walk by cubicle even though it's close to him because she is female, etc. It has been this way since a long time, since she is female no one bothers her, and all the focus is on me. I remember being in the field and working with contractors and I had to work with this jerk, he was very rude. Anyways, he tried being rude to this girl one day, so she cried to the project manager and they fired him next day morning. He was actually lot ruder to me, but if I had said something, they would have laughed at me. Ever since then no one really bothers her. They just watch me even more. Thinking about all this does make me have a bad mood.

Other than that the others guys at my work try to make fun of me, when they see and me and her working together and they say that she is going to be my boss one day, etc. thinking they cracked a very funny joke. They have done this a few times and I find it annoying. Also they try putting each other down in front of her, so they look good to her. Also I can't really get expectations met at work or anywhere for that matter. I don't think people give any importance at all. They talk to me but don't really take me that seriously. I am also one of the youngest workers here.

I have to ask Ninja how he deals with women and emasculated men at his work. If he ever hit on girls at work, etc. I know it's a bad idea to try to hit up women at work. But when my co-worker talked about cheating I got all excited. Anyways now she changed her tune on that. She is the only female that I talk too, so I end up talking personal stuff with her. I have obsessed about banging her, but never tried to ask her out, because she is married and also she works with me. She looks at me as a little gay friend, that annoys me even further. Anyways last week I went and spoke to another female at my work out of desperation, but then I did not continue pursuing that, because I did not want get into trouble. I see a few girls here and there at work, I am tempted to talk to them because I see them on more than occasion, but then I don't want to get fired from here, so I stop myself. I am thinking I should get a weekend job at an apple store or somewhere and hit on girls there, so that if I get fired from there it won't matter. Anyways I have to leave to field, so I will continue about my frustrations, bad moods in another blog.

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I need to work on being stimulating in my blogs. My goal should be to stimulate the reader. I need to hammer this concept in my head and apply it to my blogs. When I write blogs during breaks at work, I am generally in a bad mood and not very excited, I let that carry over to my blogs, I write my blogs as a chore instead of being excited while writing it like KDDR. I need to avoid doing that; I should still be able express myself in spite of my mood swings.

Just like they have hot dog eating contests, they need to have watermelon eating contest, not sure if they have them already, but sure sounds like a great idea. I just got a better idea. I am going to create a cartoon with fruits emulating human life. I will call it fruitions. The fruitions will be going about their day to day lives just like their human counterpart. I will definitely incorporate my beloved watermelons in the cartoon. So we have the happily married couple, the Banana and a female watermelon, and their son, the kiwi. The banana has good sex with his wife, the watermelon. The son, kiwi plays baseball and xbox like a typical American teenager. The mangoes play basketball and the strawberries are the street sweepers.

The blackberries provide cell phone service, but they do not carry the esteemed Iphone. The blueberries are the doctors and provide health services to the general public. The raspberries have fruit noodle shops throughout the great city of Fruitopia. We got the whole berry fruit family covered. Moving on to the other fruits, the pineapples provide security in the town; their tough exterior help them when combating rough criminals. The female apples are the cheerleaders for the local football team, which in turn constitutes of mighty male watermelons. Every year when the stars are aligned in a sacred pattern, the fruits get together and sacrificed the guavas and passed them around for consumption by the other fruits. This was believed to increase the vigor, vitality, strength and longevity of the fruits.

I was supposed to finish this yesterday, and I had most of it done, but I had to leave suddenly and did not end up posting it.

thoughts on grinding, gangsters and auxiliary stuff.

Grinding, this form of dance really boggles my mind. I never really understood the whole concept of grinding on the dance floor and calling it dancing. I think it is retarded. Well actually I even think most of black music, rap is retarded, not really music. I might feel this way maybe because I did not grow up in America. To me music should be melodious, or uplifting, pleasant to the ear, or motivational, inspirational, etc. Some ugly gangster looking guy screaming obscenities in a microphone or saying words in it does not constitute music. I mean I like few 2pac songs and few of the positive hip-hop songs with some message to it. This is how hip hop probably started as a way to express some positive message, but today has ended up as dumb rap songs, niggers sing about their bling bling and 16 inch rims. On a site note dumb music like mariachi music is something I cannot handle for too long either, I feel listening to that music lowers your IQ. In addition, stupid reggae ton is classless bullshit. I only use that I see for hip-hop with beats, reggae ton music is that it could be used as background music to do the dry humping dance. I also hate guys who blast gangster rap in their cars and thinking they are all tough because they listen to it.

I also hate guys who try to act gangster, I find it highly annoying when guys walk around acting and trying to look all-tough in night clubs, etc. I like beat these cocksuckers with a baseball bat. I also do not get why so many gangster Mexican guys have that weird gangster shaved head look. I also see some Korean and other Asian gang members with that same annoying gangster haircut. I heard that shaving their heads to join gangs was part of purifying process, are you kidding me? Why the fuck are these sons of bitches getting purified and then committing crime and dealing with most impure activities? When did being urban become wearing baggy clothing, gangster outfits, and oh yah those straight hats, I just hate those, why not just wear a normal baseball, but no all those cock suckers have to wear a cap that is straight and weird. Also you don’t need a cap indoors, unless you forgot to comb your head or you are trying to hide your face from security cameras.
I was also never fond of tattoos and piercing. I can never understand why people get piercing in the first place; go through all that pain to look uglier?

Getting back to discussing grinding, which I originally intended to discuss. I don’t really get why girls dance like that, but then they don’t want to have sex. I mean they dance like sluts, act like whores, drink your drinks and talk to you when they are drunk but if you want bang them, they are like, excuse me, who do you think I am? A slut? All of a sudden they act all offended, but then they don’t mind having ten different guy’s dicks rubbed on their butt/ vagina area. I would assume a slut on the dance floor, should be a slut off the dance floor. I wonder if girls really get stimulated by grinding, I mean they seem to like doing it, or do they do it because all the other retarded dumb popular bitches are doing it? And they want to fit in and get the attention from guys? I don’t know, chicks are so retarded.

When I was growing up, imitating Michael Jackson, break dance, etc. was dancing to me. I don’t know when drying humping became dancing. I don’t really see what dry humping does for the guy, other than give a hard on. I seem to have some kind of emotional reaction when I see other guys grinding girls, because I am the guy on the dance floor who no girl wants to grind. I just don’t get it. I probably won’t even like it that much, but it’s just that I wonder why can’t I grind girls like the other guys.
I actually hate the club atmosphere, but I like to see the girls all tarted up, showing they thighs, their boobs, their butts and every other part they could possibly show to turn on a guy. I also like watching girls rubbing themselves onto other girls.

I have more to right about grinding and other stuff, but I will save that for future blogs.