Tuesday Morning

My momentary realizations are increasing every day. I am slowly not reacting the way the other person wants me to when they try annoying me. I am ignoring and invalidating them in a subtle manner. I ignored one of pussified co-workers yesterday and it worked well. The guy tried annoying me again, but was a little surprised that I did not react and later he tried to qualify when I kept ignoring his ass. I am practice ignoring and comfort with vulnerability. Even the other coworkers acting a little differently not that I am not reacting. I still try to qualify to this one coworker of mine, because of my low inner value. This should change over time.

    I practiced a little bit of frame control yesterday and today with this dumb Indian woman online. I am learning ignore the crap that other people say to get a reaction of me. It's working well. I started steering interaction with this bitch instead of her always leading it and me following or giving her interesting crap. I am realizing how retarded chicks really are. Also I am able to see how stupid my pussified coworkers really are. The guys I used to value and qualify to.

    I have to practice saying what I want to say unapologetically to women while doing my invalidation mission. Also I need to practice being slow and deliberate. Other things I could work on, are talking slowly and calmly in general to everyone. I need to stop making unnecessary sounds while talking as KDDR said. My voice does not have to sound shaky even when I am excited. This is something I have to remind myself to work on.

    I am also slowly learning not to be a pussy and run to the girls at my work and try impressing them. I value these females because I don't have a girl in my life now. I get happy just being around these females, which is not good. This is slowly changing with my realizations, but should change drastically once my interactions with women outside work increase.