Expression Practice

    I am studying for my exam in the most hurried manner. Books and study material surround me and I feel like a great scientist preparing for something big. Man I will so happy once the exam if over for I will not have to go to class on Tuesday's for a while. I am typing this blog on word 2010. I want to check out the features of this software, it feels very similar to word 2007. I do not see much difference its appearance but I do like it thought, because I always like the newest, latest and greatest stuff. I always feel like they are going to change my life, which they seldom do! I do love the instant search feature though. This is so sweet. I can look search through a document in real-time and click the results to see the different parts of the document the word is. I love it; I can quickly find all occurrences of the word. No more using old versions of word for me, only word 2010 with instant search! I love finding stuff quickly; it gives me so much joy because in the real I cannot find stuff in my messy room. Finding stuff in a digital document counteracts this frustration. Someday in the future we will be able to have small RFID tags on all read world objects and with a few keystrokes, one will be able to locate where their possessions are irrespective of the mess, because the RFID tracking computer will keep track of them. Until then I have to try to arrange my room and dream about the future.

I am so happy my final will be over this evening, I get a great feeling after I finish a semester and I will be able to enjoy that again, I feel like a big burden is removed from my shoulder and I feel so light that I can fly. I will be able to spend more time reading books and practicing my expression. At least that is what I hope to do, let us see how it plays out.

I love the low profile keyboard that I am using, it makes it so much easier for me type. I am able to type quicker without hurting my wrists. I love the track pad built into the keyboard, as I do not have to move my hand around reaching for a mouse and getting carpel tunnel in the process. Wow, I have already typed two hundred words on this keyboard in a few minutes. I love it baby. This is so sweet, it feels like I have discovered something magical and now I am going to revolutionize the way I type blogs and hence from here on just going to churn out blogs and left and right.

This is the bomb; I have already typed 300 words. Yippee do. I will be meeting the blog entry word count requirement soon.

I do not feel like studying, I should be studying right now. I am going to study soon, after I finish typing this blog. I will post this blog after my final tonight. Since I did ok on the midterm, I have been taking it lightly for the final, which is very bad, if I do not at least put in some last moment effort. I will eat some delicious food now and then get cracking like a cracker. My mind is going crazy studying for this exam! I am looking forward to reading books again after my final.

I like

I like jumping up and down on a trampoline. It makes me feel like a little kid. I feel so happy. I feel more energetic. I like jumping on trampolines because I can jump on them and then fall down on them but not get hurt. I can jump to my hearts content and then just fall down when I am tired and not get hurt at all. It feels so good when I fall and bounce up and down. It feels like I am jumping in paradise and falling down with all these great thoughts running rapidly through my mind. After a couple of minutes, I can get back to jumping up and down like a little kid. When I get a house someday, I want to have a trampoline in my backyard. Everyday when I comeback from work I want to jump up on down on my trampoline. It would be perfect if I had a dog, which jumped up and down with me. Now that I think of that, I am wondering if dogs do jump on trampolines. Anyways my dog will jump with me.

I like strawberry ice cream. I like the pink creamy color of strawberry ice cream. It is very pleasing. I also the like strawberry flavor, because it is not as plain as vanilla but not too strong like pineapple. It is the subtle strawberry flavor that made we want to crave strawberry ice cream when I was a kid. It is the same reason that I also like strawberry milkshakes, but alas I do not enjoy these delights as I used to because of my constant fear of their detrimental nutritional value.

I like cute girls wearing pink. It feels so right, it seems like the color was just made for them to wear. On a similar note, I like looking at girl’s thongs because it gives me a big boner. I like girls wearing pink and black thongs the most. I find the black thong sexier and the pink thong cute because I associate pink with cute and black with sexy. I find black lingerie sexy on a blond chick so sexy. The contrast just drives me crazy.

Incompetence

Why does Franchise annoy me so much? I am the problem. Why am I so quick to point the flaws in others? I am the problem. Saturday night, I watched Rob sitting in between Franchise and KDDR, while KDDR and Franchise were talking about Nintendo games, Rob just sat there in between looking pretty in his jacket, unable to connect with their topic of discussion. I made a comment “Hey you guys should include Rob in your conversation” and KDDR snapped back saying that I should instead attempt to converse with him. I made that comment because I was incompetent in initiating a conversation with Rob. So I do the only thing I know how to do best, just point out others behaviors.

On a different note, I find people who don’t speak clearly annoying but I don’t speak very clearly either.

I find franchise to be a hypocritical nerdy white guy listening to black music and trying to be or act cool, when he doesn’t come off as being cool at all. I am a hypocritical nerdy Indian guy who wants to be cool but is not. Why do I find nfm and kddr being partial to Franchise when he is just as incompetent? I am the problem. Why am I seen as the default bad guy and Franchise as the victim, when he initiates and I react? I am the problem. I just react; I don’t do anything proactive to be more competent in my interactions with him. I just react and get angry. I find Franchise’s sarcastic comments so annoying but I have used sarcasm myself on many occasions. I am the problem.

I remember Franchise saying “sweet” and snickering when ninja was reprimanding me. It made me so angry. But I have done similar things when ninja was talking to others, KDDR.

I find dealing with socially incompetent people a chore. I am socially incompetent too. I justify it by saying at least I am not that bad. I am bad.

In order to get others to meet my expectations, I need to enforce my expectations. But in order to expose the disorder in others I have to first expose the disorder in myself. I want to practice getting others to meet my expectations but I am still so disorderly to the core myself. My incompetence makes me mad at everyone and everything. I hate them because of their incompetence because I am too incompetent myself and I cannot make a difference to their incompetence. It instead becomes a competition between two incompetent people, since I am still the problem.

Discovering Apple

I am so glad that I discovered apple products at the right time in the history of computers. Right after they switched to Intel processors. My discovery of apple products seems perfectly orchestrated. One evening in 2005, I meet this guy listening to his ipod. He and I become good friends and I observed that he had a mac computer. I later see him use his computer and I impressed immensely that I actually go out and look into finding a hacked version of their operating system and installing it on my PC. Upon installing it, I was so happy, I felt cooler for the fact that I was using this modern operating system. It was a unique feeling like having bmw steering in a Toyota. Everything was easier, simpler and most importantly cooler to use in this operating system. I had injected new life into my computer. I had blessed it with apple’s operating system.

I like Macs because they are shown in movies. They look so much sleeker than plain old pc’s in cinema. I remember first awing the power book laptop in American pie when they were watching naked girls. Using a mac, made me feel like I am somehow part of the American pie guys using a mac. At least momentarily it did, until I realized I was still in my apartment with no blond girls to spy on with a webcam.

I felt so efficient myself when I used a mac. I felt the mac is going to make my life more organized and cool but that hasn’t happened yet. I wish my life was like the apple’s operating system so streamlined, organized and simple. I thought by using apple’s latest hot product the Iphone my life would be so organized and I would be on top of everything. In my naïve days I used to think whenever I was talking to a girl I would look up what to say to her on my Iphone and say it to her and impress her. My mind likes to drift away whenever I think of some new idea like that and bask in thought of how its going to alter my life and bring joy. At least apple helps me dream about such things.

Discovering apple has definitely brought me more joy, even though it is not all that I anticipated but overall it has been a very positive experience.