I haven't blogged in the longest time. Why? I have been busy with work, nothing important to write about. I went to a Salsa class at a community college near my house. I finally decided to find out other ways to socialize outside of my workplace. Why? I cannot socialize properly at my work place and I have to be very careful at work. Socializing at least a little bit outside work helps me remain sane and also helps me cut down on socializing at work, which I really need to cut down.
I decided to write this blog instead of going out and practicing asking women for the time. It seems like it is hot outside and also I ate too much and so I am stuffed. Those damn cheese roll Danishes are so good. The yummy cheese and sugar just make crave more. I ate four of them like a big glutton and now my stomach aches. Well that's what I get for being greedy. I do that every so often where I just binge eat. I am bored or I have nothing better to do and just thrusting food or drinks down my throat is a quick way to some instant short lived joy.
Getting back to salsa class last night, I finally went to the class, after missing the registration deadline. I felt uncomfortable at first when I went into the dance classroom. I felt like I did not belong there. I felt I was too nerdy for that place, a nerdy engineer who can't dance. Also I felt I was too old for that place, etc. I had every negative thought running through my mind but I still continued to stick around the classroom. I walked around to the different doors of the class, stood outside the class, inside the class; I imagined what the girls in the class might think of me etc. I also tried acting cool by leaning against a pole at the back of the class. I thought of leaving many times and that this was not for me, but I stayed, I am not going to find the perfect way to socialize but at least it is better to do something than nothing at all like I usually do.
I finally met the instructor and she said that I could add the class. I felt a little weird practicing the dance moves beside the little girls. After sometime I got a little more comfortable. The fun began when the instructor made us partner, now the dance made more sense and I did not feel that uncomfortable. I like salsa because you get to lead the girl in the dance. This aligns with the m101 principles. Always be leading! So by the end of the class I got more comfortable, partnered with different girls. Oh yah, initially I had to partner with a fatty but I hung in there and then I got to partner with a few cute girls. I am still uncomfortable and self conscious around girls, these girls were more confident than me, but slowly I tried to be more definite when I communicated with them. I tried showing them by saying 'like this', etc. I was thinking of a class that would be more conducive for social interaction than this like an acting class but at least this a start and better than not doing anything.
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